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In reference to....

It has come to my attention that my last blog has caused a great deal of commotion with a few people. In reference to this I would just like to say, this is a country of free speech where even a simple minded lowly housewife like myself may say anything that pops into her head. It being such a country I feel the need to remind everyone that reads my blog, they do so under their own accordance. I have nor would I ever force anyone to read my opinions or inner thoughts. If something I have said has offended someone I would just like to say, that is their problem not mine. I do not feel that I should be held responsible for someone reading something and assuming what they wish from it and being offended. It is not my responsibility to censor who reads my blog. If you don't like me or what I write, then why are you reading my blog anyway. It seems that if this, very unimportant to anyone but me, blog is causing such a stir perhaps those that are stirred by it should choose other reading material. It was commented that some who follow this blog do so as a form of entertainment, and humor. It would then only seem right that they take what is written here as they would entertainment and humor. If they take their entertainment and humor that seriously I fear they may be missing the point altogether. So I say this to all who I may have offended. I have not judged you for your inability to show who you are and say anything or nothing. I ask only for the same consideration. I am willing to say what I think and not hide from anyone. What I write on this blog are my own thoughts and opinions, if they should offend or irritate, I would suggest those who are offended or irritated simply....stop reading it.

Yours truly
Monica Turner

How sad it must be to be you.....

How sad it must be to be you.....you know who you are....you who seems to have an unfilling emptiness....an unquenching desire to always feel as if you are number 1 to everyone....an unsatisfied desire to feel beautiful.
How sad it must be to be you.....you who must constantly try to fill a void with a barrage of self affirmations for lack of outside compliments....you who surrounds yourself by people who will further the idea that all you do is right.....you who cannot live the spirituality you claim for your own but are to weak to admit your own hypocrisy.
How sad it must be to be you.....you who has to fill your life with the negativity of bringing others down to raise your own self esteem to a level you can live with....you who would prefer to look the part of a happy loving person rather than actually live it....you who will let people and their actions dictate who you will associate with or show interest in.....you who is more concerned with "pretty" than with truth...fairness...love....family....faith....or forgiveness.
How sad it must be to be you.....you who would wish life altering heartache on people so you could be first.....you who can say one thing and live another....you who can use words that are foreign to you as if you created them....you who can claim to live a life and put up a farce of such living just to act and project the opposite.
How sad it must be to be you.....you who seems to never keep loved ones and yet has a hundred reasons why they leave none of which fault you....you who chooses to fulfill some unknown emptiness with a rash of money spending rather than finding a love that can fulfill it....you who lies expertly, and condemns the liar....as long as the condemned is not you.....you who will get caught in a lie and never admit to any wrong doing, but will insist the wrong is admitted to you if you feel it has been done to you.
How sad it must be to be you.....to know one day you will be alone and all the burnt bridges and harsh words and lost chances for forgiveness will be gone and all that will be left is you....beautiful....broken.....alone....still searching for that one love or friend or family member that can make it all complete....only to find they have all gone....the "pretty" ran out for them the inside ugly truth had shown itself too many times.
How sad it must be to be you.....you who I used to be jealous of and strive to be like....you who I wished I could emulate.....you who I wished I could be as talented as or as pretty as or as organized as or as blessed as or as spiritual as.....you who was just a facade a fake a "false front" a wanna be a for appearance sake only kind of person.....you who I once looked up to and admired you who I once made so important in my life....you who I once considered a friend....you who I once felt such anger and resentment towards....you who I once considered back stabbing and two faced and cowardly..... you who I once believed had the power to sabotage my happy ending.
How sad it must be to be you.....you who I now see is just as lost and broken as the rest of us....you who I feel bad for because I have had love and friendship of the truest kind....you who may never feel truly beautiful on the inside as a person, as I have been blessed enough to feel most of my life especially now....you who will never truly feel the absolute feeling of "free" total forgiveness gives....you who I will no longer feel anger or hate or disgust for....you who has replaced all those feelings with pity and sadness....you will miss so much....you have taught me who I don't want to be....you who I say thank you to.....you who I wish nothing but the best....you who will live a cold and lonely existence with no idea of how true warmth feels....you who will no longer hold more than a passing moment in my thoughts....you who I now let go of....you who will no longer hold any power over me....you who will never make me doubt myself again....you who are no friend of mine....you who I will feel only indifference for......you who I will never be....you who I choose to be different than.....you who are not ME!
How sad it must be to be you.....you who will always choose "pretty" over "real".....you who will see this blog entry as fuel on the fire....you who will never realize this is closure....you who will always wonder.....you who will one day miss and wish you could call me up and just talk.....you who are so sad.
How sad it must be to be you.

POSITIVELY....WONDERFUL!!!

I recently had some unpleasant experiences with some unpleasant people....I am trying to be a more positive person....no really I am....so therefore I am not allowing myself to even give these people the satisfaction of taking the smile off my face. I am hoping we will hear something about the house soon....as of yet still no word still just a hope and dream of mine....but as of recently another opportunity has opened up to us, one I am also very excited about....another house...I don't know much detail about this one, but hopefully.....we'll see....anyway I did my yearly tarot the other day...I have never done this before...a really good friend of mine does it every year she says it's a tradition for her....so I decided I would try it....so my intuition's been telling me for months that 2009 is our year, all really great things are gonna happen for us this year....I can just feel it in my gut.... and my yearly tarot cards said the same thing.....so I'm so excited for this whole year to pan out and all these really great things to start happening for us.....we so deserve it and I am so ready for all the positivity, and joy and just livin. I almost can't contain my excitement I'm just so convinced it's all happening for us this year....I know there will be some negativity there always is....but for some reason I just think it will be minimized this year...minimized a lot to an almost non-existent state of being....I just can't wait and my new years resolution is to keep my personal self in a constant state of positivity....or at least as constant as possible! So here's to a great new year and all the great things we deserve finally coming our way!!! And as always I say to anyone who isn't rooting for us and who is hatin' on us....Fuck You!!! And kiss my ass as I walk away smiling....yeah you!

@$&&#^* Printer!!

okay, so Chet bought me a new printer....the exact one I wanted. Ever since it's been one pain the ass after another.....First the one he bought me wouldn't print ink so I waited till the day after Christmas and got online with a tech person to chat with....after 30mins she decided I needed a new print head so she sent me one....it only took a couple of days so I was still really excited....then when we got it all put back together it still didn't work. So I called the customer service number and after the 45mins it took the man to figure out he couldn't fix it he decided I would have to send it back and they would send me a new one. So I followed their instructions to a T and when I didn't get my printer I called back....then I was told someone didn't process the order so it would be another week before I got my printer...PIST...so when it finally came I was super excited...until I went to hook it all up and found they hadn't sent me a power cord....a power cord.....because I would be so excited to have the printer there's no way I would want to turn it on an actually use it rite....ugggghhhh! Needless to say I'm calling Kodak and may the gods help whoever answers the phone!

Your not here.....

It's late...after midnight...your in some (I'm sure) not so nice hotel in a town I had never heard of before we knew you were going there. I can't sleep I told you I wouldn't be able to. I know you've only been gone twenty-four hours...and I know it's ridiculous to miss you like I do...I think about our very best friends L & J and I know it's totally selfish to feel the way I do....they have it so much worse....and yet I can't help feeling somewhat lost. I took a vitamin today...and I fed the dog...with actual dog food. I walked into our bedroom to go to bed tonight and I laughed and teared up....because you turned the heater up before you left...you know I like it warm, and you know I don't know how to do it. It's hard to explain to people why I feel the way I do when your not around....sometimes it's hard for me to understand it myself. I love you, of course I do, but this feeling of....emptiness that's here when your not...I never expected that ever. Don't misunderstand I'm not one of those women who is defined by her husband....It's just that your more to me than just a husband, your more than just the guy I feel comfortable with, more than just the guy who pays the bills, more than just the guy I share a bed with, more than just the guy who takes out the trash, or drives me around, or hugs me, or deals with my craziness....Your my friend, my confidant, my sounding board, my co-pilot, my partner in crime, my tuck in buddy, my lover, my everything. I missed talking to you today with the laziness I have grown accustomed to. I missed my good morning and hunny I'm home kiss....I knew it would be no fun, but this rush of emotion....I wasn't prepared for...I guess I just miss my friend. I love you and I will see you soon my love...my friend. I'm gonna go to bed now...I won't be sleeping alone the rest of our small family is already in bed...our bed...I guess they felt some sense of emptyness as well.